http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/ kandy_22 - LiveJournal.com Fri, 15 Feb 2008 19:24:36 GMT LiveJournal / LiveJournal.com kandy_22 14854088 personal http://l-userpic.livejournal.com/71148367/14854088 http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/ 64 100 http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1852.html Fri, 15 Feb 2008 19:24:36 GMT http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1852.html I posted this on proana but OMG!!! 6 lbs!!!!!! i cant belive it how can i gained 6 Efing pounds but not eating much??? why is my doby doing this to me im so depressed today... i havent been this depressed in years!!! anyways i feel like i should sleep all day and just stay in bed... http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1852.html public 1 http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1557.html Sat, 09 Feb 2008 05:48:47 GMT http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1557.html Dear Journal....<br /><br />This week was so bad..... On mon, tue my ED was out of control and binge were awful.. Then on wednesday ... Had a big accident that resulted me being in the hospital getting stitched.... Im not suicidal at all.... Just got SO angry and wanted to hit myself... but I never noticed that the working knife I had in my hands was'nt closed and had a fresh blade sticking out......... I feel so stupid,..... anyways... gotta glimpse at what a muscle really looked like.... <br /><br />I got down to 96.8 which is wow, but still isn't enough my ass and thighs are so fat I want to lose another inch...<br /><br />Took lax tonight cause its Friday and on friday it's a official eat what ever junk you want to eat... Not my idea but i don't mind if its just once a week.... the lax takes good care of it<br /><br />ED isn't so bad now... http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1557.html guilty public 0 http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1388.html Tue, 05 Feb 2008 04:13:11 GMT http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1388.html I started off doing so well today.... no breaky, small lunch and small diner, but i had to mess it all up on chocolate cake and a bowl of cereal... Also I had to make the groceries with him... he picked out yummy stuff... crap know im gonna binge... I hate this.... cant wait to live by myself... http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1388.html annoyed public 0 http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1262.html Sun, 03 Feb 2008 23:19:51 GMT http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1262.html I Totally Bindge today... Cheesy pasta, cake and cereal... Something like 1000Cal all at once... I didn't know my body could hold in a such amount of food... I'm such a pig... I just can't stop once I started... I can wait to live alone... This will be so much easer ... I just wont buy any food so that I wont binge on anything... Tried to purge but apparently, I'm bad at it... I purged maybe a fifth of what I ingested....<br /><br />I'm so worthless... http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/1262.html angry public 0 http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/861.html Sat, 02 Feb 2008 03:45:39 GMT http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/861.html I hate winter!!! http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/861.html thoughtful public 0 http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/751.html Sat, 02 Feb 2008 03:42:10 GMT http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/751.html Just Joined :) http://kandy-22.livejournal.com/751.html satisfied public 0